Post Test, Post Emotions

I suppose since this was to be a written log of my journey on the cancer diagnosis, I should post today's tests.

I won't go  into a descriptive detailed report of the test today. My emotions aren't stable enough right now to do that.

Maybe the results aren't as important as noting the emotions. I feel drained. Terribly scared and tearful. Getting negative news hurls one into a state of shock. I can't even think of what direction I should be moving. Crawling into bed and shutting out the world is what I'm doing right now.

I'll be back with a better more detailed report later. Right now I have not much to say.