I have to type quickly ...I don't want to have this fade.
I went to bed around 9:30 knowing this was way to early for me to do this. I'll be awake at 3AM having slept my normal 6 hours so I usually make myself stay up until 11PM. Sleep I did.
It was snowing and cold and Carrie and I were riding through the Rockies at night. We had to order a Pizza for mom and my sister who were waiting on us in Louisiana. Both Carrie and I were wearing shorts. This trip wasn't planned.. We just jumped in the car and took off.
Sometime later we exited interstate and arrived at a motel where we would spend the night. We got a room and decided to go for a little walk. I know there were young men a few years older then Carrie in the halls of that motel, doors open across the way and of course they immediately struck up conversations with Carrie. '
Some time later and soon, Carrie and I decided to go for a walk and we stopped at snowy scenes to take some pictures of her. The Tetons were in the background. A strange young lady appeared and posed with Carrie but before I could get the shot, she disappeared out of the camera viewing area.
Carrie and I walked a bit further and on a ledge we sat down and laid back watching the snow fall on us. Soon two couples joined our area. One was newly weds and the other couple was a lady a woman with multiple ailing. Though her health was compromised, she was very friendly. We talked with them a while.
We decided to leave; we still had a pizza to find.
When we got back to the room and walked to our room, loud music and open doors down the hall with garbage strewed about. What kind of place is this. We went into our room and the young men were there. They had rented part of our room. Because of the virus, that was the new policy of the motel. Share a room. Carrie and I headed for the managers office. the window was closed and there was a bell to ring to get her to come to the door. We moved on. Staying the night was not an option.
The next thing I remember was we were at a building and there were a lot of people there. We decided not to stay: the group was really drunk and rowdy. Suddenly I started missing my purse. I knew I had left maybe on the trail so now I'm really frightened. The purse, credit cards and ID was missing. Did I set it down on the trail. Big fear of mine when traveling far from home is losing my means to survive ie. credit cards, cash and driver's license. Still whimpering and saying 'no, no and no, I drifted upward and our of this dream; still whimpering about losing that purse. It took me a few minutes after waking to realize it was but a dream and a weird one. I immediately grabbed my laptop to record everything. Memories of dreams fade so fast.
My thoughts on this? The Covid 19 is ever present in our daily lives. I was talking to my friend about not being able to take a long trip this summer with Carrie. I have the means but I don't have the ability. Too scary to travel right now and the national parks have been closed. Going into another state with this virus everywhere would be a thing to consider. The people in this dream, the lady with all the ailings? Was she tested positive? The motel and sharing a room? Were renting motels to present a problem? Sharing with strangers and keeping our social distances?
It was snowing and we were in the Rockies; a place I love and always willing to visit.
This post isn't supposed to make much sense. After all it was a dream and just something I wanted to record before it faded.
3AM in the morning, in my bed and back to sleep after swallowing an Ambien. Good night.
Tuesday, June 22, 2021
Sunday, April 19, 2020
2020 and Covid19
Oh, where to start? The year blossomed as a relatively safe journey into the next 12 months. January led us to believe all was well. aWe weren't told everything about January. That came 3 months later and come it did. It came to the tune of quarantines and masks and hand santizers and frequent hand washing. Not much more information was given on self care. They (the scientists) said the length of time it took to sing happy birthday 3 times would break the lipid coating surrounding the virus and deactivate or kill it. My hands are red and raw and my blood pressure is high from the anxiety. We are now told to wear masks if we suspect we are carrying it to protect others around us. Around us means staying 6ft. away from other people. Don't touch your face when out around people and in stores. Use santizers to clean your hands unless you are home because soap and water work best to kill the virus you may have come in contact with. As the days pass, more information is filtered down via the media from the scientists and the length of infection on paper, wood and metal is released.
Initially only people suspect has to wear masks. A month passes and now masks are suggested for everyone.
All non essential businesses are to be closed. I assumed this mean doctors, nurses and any hospital or care takers were considered 'essential'. Not so. The big box stores stayed open to supply electrical or plumbing parts in the event a homeowner needed to repair a critical breakdown. Washers and dryers appparently are essential. Anyplace that sold a crust of bread could stay open and the restaurants did 'curbside' or takeout only'. Curfews in place and the months rolled along.
Hospitals pleading for help from the federal government while medical people worked in unsafe conditions to fight this virus and try to save some of the people stricken.
Governors, the Democratic ones, were blatanly ignored and vilified by the commander in chief. He didn't try to hide his dislike nor his preference on who he would offer Federal help. Death continued to race upward while morgues were set up outside the hospitals to store the bodies and still the Defence Protection Act was passed but not initiaed by the commander in chief. A bidding war broke out between the govenors of the states on ventilators and PPE's. Soon trenches were being dug and wooden coffins lined up at the bottom of those trenches of the unclaimed. Dirt was shoved in and we moved on.
One of the things I will always remember is the President insinuating that the massive use of gloves by the doctors, nurses and hospital staff was excessive compared to months in the pass before this virus hit. He insinuated they were being stolen by staff.
As a nurse working containment, double gloving is mandatory. Changing gloves after iniating contact with a patient and before seeing another patient is mandatory for the health of said patients.
The fight continues with the mayors now on opening the economy while the virus death count continues to rise. Testing has been stopped at the site that is free here. If you want testing, you will pay for it. Most people here are unemployed right now and food money is the main concern. Food lines at food banks are swelling and the supply is low.
Food supply is in danger as the meat packing workers are becoming infected and the plants are shutting down.
The president wants to open the economy, 20 million people out of work and he is eying his chances at the upcoming election as he has always touted the strong economy as his main point for reelection.
Every briefing from the Whitehouse is now a rally for his base. He brags about the testing available for everyone as the scientists say this is the only safe way to open the economy. MTest and quarantine and test again.
The govenors do not have the means to acquire the tests. Only the Federal Goverment has access to the means to order and acquire. Knowing the only safe way to reenter the marketplace is testing and the months it would take to do this, the president is insisting the market place be opened without testing everyone which would be a monumental task.
A plan has been presented on a 'slow opening'. Rules are set on how this is to be done. Nobody is buying this and the public remains cautious and I remain nervous and at home.
My trips from my house are to my clients house where I maintain the position of his personal RN. I slip through the drive through window at Walgreens with my hand sanitizer close by, pick up meds and roll right back to his house. Occasionally I do a drive through for lunch pickup; shop for groceries every two weeks and only go to the 'senior hour' shopping where the shoppers are few and the aisle are directional, following the arrows on the floor and spacing 6 feet away from other shoppers. The checkout line is now encasing the cashier behind plastic, while you slip your debit card into the machine and pay the bill. There is very little chatter with people around you.
Everything is a danger. The plastic bags, the card, the door handle of your car and the bottom of your shoes. Don't touch your face. Don't touch your face. A chant I have to do to remind myself. Go home, wash your hands.
Amazingly there are still people posting that this is no different then the normal flu that passess through each year. To this I say, the numbers of casualties for the normal flu is over the span of 12 months in the year. THIS VIRUS has killed over 30,000 people in 8 WEEKS!
I haven't got to the point where I rip all my clothes off as soon as I get in the door. I don't want to give my 90 yr old client a myocardial infarction.
Initially only people suspect has to wear masks. A month passes and now masks are suggested for everyone.
All non essential businesses are to be closed. I assumed this mean doctors, nurses and any hospital or care takers were considered 'essential'. Not so. The big box stores stayed open to supply electrical or plumbing parts in the event a homeowner needed to repair a critical breakdown. Washers and dryers appparently are essential. Anyplace that sold a crust of bread could stay open and the restaurants did 'curbside' or takeout only'. Curfews in place and the months rolled along.
Hospitals pleading for help from the federal government while medical people worked in unsafe conditions to fight this virus and try to save some of the people stricken.
Governors, the Democratic ones, were blatanly ignored and vilified by the commander in chief. He didn't try to hide his dislike nor his preference on who he would offer Federal help. Death continued to race upward while morgues were set up outside the hospitals to store the bodies and still the Defence Protection Act was passed but not initiaed by the commander in chief. A bidding war broke out between the govenors of the states on ventilators and PPE's. Soon trenches were being dug and wooden coffins lined up at the bottom of those trenches of the unclaimed. Dirt was shoved in and we moved on.
One of the things I will always remember is the President insinuating that the massive use of gloves by the doctors, nurses and hospital staff was excessive compared to months in the pass before this virus hit. He insinuated they were being stolen by staff.
As a nurse working containment, double gloving is mandatory. Changing gloves after iniating contact with a patient and before seeing another patient is mandatory for the health of said patients.
The fight continues with the mayors now on opening the economy while the virus death count continues to rise. Testing has been stopped at the site that is free here. If you want testing, you will pay for it. Most people here are unemployed right now and food money is the main concern. Food lines at food banks are swelling and the supply is low.
Food supply is in danger as the meat packing workers are becoming infected and the plants are shutting down.
The president wants to open the economy, 20 million people out of work and he is eying his chances at the upcoming election as he has always touted the strong economy as his main point for reelection.
Every briefing from the Whitehouse is now a rally for his base. He brags about the testing available for everyone as the scientists say this is the only safe way to open the economy. MTest and quarantine and test again.
The govenors do not have the means to acquire the tests. Only the Federal Goverment has access to the means to order and acquire. Knowing the only safe way to reenter the marketplace is testing and the months it would take to do this, the president is insisting the market place be opened without testing everyone which would be a monumental task.
A plan has been presented on a 'slow opening'. Rules are set on how this is to be done. Nobody is buying this and the public remains cautious and I remain nervous and at home.
My trips from my house are to my clients house where I maintain the position of his personal RN. I slip through the drive through window at Walgreens with my hand sanitizer close by, pick up meds and roll right back to his house. Occasionally I do a drive through for lunch pickup; shop for groceries every two weeks and only go to the 'senior hour' shopping where the shoppers are few and the aisle are directional, following the arrows on the floor and spacing 6 feet away from other shoppers. The checkout line is now encasing the cashier behind plastic, while you slip your debit card into the machine and pay the bill. There is very little chatter with people around you.
Everything is a danger. The plastic bags, the card, the door handle of your car and the bottom of your shoes. Don't touch your face. Don't touch your face. A chant I have to do to remind myself. Go home, wash your hands.
Amazingly there are still people posting that this is no different then the normal flu that passess through each year. To this I say, the numbers of casualties for the normal flu is over the span of 12 months in the year. THIS VIRUS has killed over 30,000 people in 8 WEEKS!
I haven't got to the point where I rip all my clothes off as soon as I get in the door. I don't want to give my 90 yr old client a myocardial infarction.
Friday, August 16, 2019
The Dental Experience
All that money in my lifetime that was invested in my teeth. The goal was to keep them.
My visit to the dentist 4 months ago did not end as I had expected. I was anticipating pouring more money into my mouth..a couple of inplants and I would be all fixed up. Not so. My dentist had other ideas. He advises against the expensive implants as the teeth were not stable and it would be investing more money into implants while other teeth were sure to go. Deep pockets, gum disease and unstable teeth and it was time to go another route. Tears streaming as he said it was not time to think about dentures. All these years he has tried to prepare me for this day. I thought I would be ready but apparently I wasn't.
We had the discussion. I don't want to have all the problems my friends and family complain about with dentures so I let him know that I wanted the implanted dentures. I left the office that day with a prescription for Halcyon and some antibiotics. In two weeks I would return all Halcyoned up...and the extractions of molars would begin meanwhile a care plan would be initiated with the costs detailed.
21,000.00. I wasn't too shocked. I had researched the cost of having this done and knew it wouldn't be cheap.
Two weeks later, and 1 hour before the appointment, I swallowed the Halcyon. I do not remember getting to the office nor getting in the chair nor any of what happened during the next hour. What a blessing! I'm a white knuckle dental patient and was not believing that Halcyon would be this effective. I'm a believer and already have my next dose for my next visit. Love me some Halcyon. Someone should have told me about this when I was having root canals and implants done!
My next visit was not supposed to be for 4 months as a bone graft was done on the first visit and a 4 month waiting period is needed to give the bone graft time to grow and fill the huge pocket from an old infection. I had to visit earlier then expected. A cavity was rocking my head; one that could not be repaired. A root canal would be necessary and neither the dentist nor I wanted to put that much money in a tooth that would be eventually extracted. Our plan? We pushed the extraction of the remaining teeth forward. An impression was made for the temporary denture that should arrive in two weeks. The remaining teeth will be extracted at that time and I will have to wear the temporary denture for a longer period of time. The bone graft will have to fill that space (4 months) and then the implants will be placed and those have to heal for 4 months. During this time I will be wearing the temporary dentures.
My dentist had warned me this would be a long process and would take patience and to just "hang with me" till we get you through this. It's one day, one month at a time right now.
My little cavity is being medicated with Orajel and hopefully we can move to the next step. The temporary dentures should arrive in two weeks and one week has already passed. I'll contact the hygienist next week for an update.
I'm not looking forward to the conventional dentures as most people I know are not happy with them. I've heard all kinds of stories on soreness, looseness and inability to chew. Hopefully this will be temporary and the implants will not offer these problems.
Updates to follow.
My visit to the dentist 4 months ago did not end as I had expected. I was anticipating pouring more money into my mouth..a couple of inplants and I would be all fixed up. Not so. My dentist had other ideas. He advises against the expensive implants as the teeth were not stable and it would be investing more money into implants while other teeth were sure to go. Deep pockets, gum disease and unstable teeth and it was time to go another route. Tears streaming as he said it was not time to think about dentures. All these years he has tried to prepare me for this day. I thought I would be ready but apparently I wasn't.
We had the discussion. I don't want to have all the problems my friends and family complain about with dentures so I let him know that I wanted the implanted dentures. I left the office that day with a prescription for Halcyon and some antibiotics. In two weeks I would return all Halcyoned up...and the extractions of molars would begin meanwhile a care plan would be initiated with the costs detailed.
21,000.00. I wasn't too shocked. I had researched the cost of having this done and knew it wouldn't be cheap.
Two weeks later, and 1 hour before the appointment, I swallowed the Halcyon. I do not remember getting to the office nor getting in the chair nor any of what happened during the next hour. What a blessing! I'm a white knuckle dental patient and was not believing that Halcyon would be this effective. I'm a believer and already have my next dose for my next visit. Love me some Halcyon. Someone should have told me about this when I was having root canals and implants done!
My next visit was not supposed to be for 4 months as a bone graft was done on the first visit and a 4 month waiting period is needed to give the bone graft time to grow and fill the huge pocket from an old infection. I had to visit earlier then expected. A cavity was rocking my head; one that could not be repaired. A root canal would be necessary and neither the dentist nor I wanted to put that much money in a tooth that would be eventually extracted. Our plan? We pushed the extraction of the remaining teeth forward. An impression was made for the temporary denture that should arrive in two weeks. The remaining teeth will be extracted at that time and I will have to wear the temporary denture for a longer period of time. The bone graft will have to fill that space (4 months) and then the implants will be placed and those have to heal for 4 months. During this time I will be wearing the temporary dentures.
My dentist had warned me this would be a long process and would take patience and to just "hang with me" till we get you through this. It's one day, one month at a time right now.
My little cavity is being medicated with Orajel and hopefully we can move to the next step. The temporary dentures should arrive in two weeks and one week has already passed. I'll contact the hygienist next week for an update.
I'm not looking forward to the conventional dentures as most people I know are not happy with them. I've heard all kinds of stories on soreness, looseness and inability to chew. Hopefully this will be temporary and the implants will not offer these problems.
Updates to follow.
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