Around February 7th, 2013, I bought a ticket on a roller coaster ride in the disguise of a mammography. Prior posts can be found on the days leading up to today. The tests, the appointments with specialists and more tests and the anxiety, anger and emotional distress.
Today has been a tearless day. A major improvement from the past three weeks. I'm moving forward on this journey. The proof of that is when I went to You Tube and started searching for "breast reconstruction" videos.
Much to my surprise many of the women posting their videos are very young to be going through this. 21 years old, a husband and small children, they post their videos of their chests after surgery. Calmly and with a smile, they talk freely about their experience with chemo, radiation and breast reconstruction.
My feelings? I've finally calmed down from the hysterical me of a few weeks and days ago. I'm sure I'll have emotional swings to come. I'm charting this on this post for myself to look back to where I have come from to where I am now.
I want to be especially aware of the time it took to get to this point. It's just little steps on a long path but I'm thankful for this much progress. Two weeks ago I could not see myself here. I can only imagine what the date March 23, 2014 might look like to me!
Still with you, holding your hand from afar xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you Ayak. it's amazing how having family and friends to be there leaves one feeling less alone. I apprciate your support.
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